Back to the old favorite

due to the screen size of Pinkie – on a 15″ monitor, with my eyesight so poor, 800 x 600 is the best resolution for me and the new look just doesn’t look good at that resolution, the post area is about 2″ wide. And since I think it’s important for me to be able to see what I write, Shazaam!, back to the old look. I do want to update the picture, perhaps I can find a nice shot of spring or something. Besides, the other look is on my class site, why have two the same? Funny how a 15″ CRT monitor used to be a “big” monitor. Now I’m lusting for a 19″ LCD or larger ( LCD’s seem way bigger than a CRT of the same size, why is that?).

Gonna be doing something fun tonight. JM is going to meet me at the church to jam and we’ve invited a couple of other guys as well. Should be pretty cool, I liked it a lot when we did that at the old church building. Play a little, talk a little, just have good fellowship. Isn’t that what life is all about? And if just one of the other guys learns to play, we have yet another player! How’s about that?

On the subject of things spiritual (hey, in my mind I was), I mentioned yesterday that I was a bit blue. Actually, it was closer to black. I haven’t talked much about it but I suppose now is as good a time as any. Sometimes, I just get that way. Black, dark, moody, cloudy, foggy, whatever. Now you see why I just choose to say black. Not able to see things as they are but sinister and dark. I’ve never been able to figure out why this happens, although I’ve certainly spent a lot of time trying. I’m pretty much convinced that it is a chemical thing, sometimes the stars just line up differently I guess. I’ve learned to live with it (and SU has as well) as far as day to day functioning but it still affects me. What does this have to do with things spiritual? Well, think of it as trying to see light when darkness surrounds you. And only you, everyone else can still see light. Then perhaps you can understand the inner conflict I go through. That is why I so like Paul’s statement about knowing what to do, wanting to do it, yet still doing the opposite for no reason. Perhaps he was chemically imbalanced as well or maybe it was just inner conflict left over from his days as a crusader against believers. Whatever the case, it helps to know that others have similar inner conflicts and aren’t perfect. Late.