distant mood lately. Not much seems to pique my interest or get me going in another direction. As usual, I’m not sure why or even when this particular mood set in.
The plantation is running smooth as silk, maybe this is the time to turn it over to someone else and look for another challenge. Or perhaps add a product line or two. Hard to say, just have to follow my instincts.
1 still seems to be sluggish, I hope she’s taking her meds as directed. She has another appointment in two weeks, I think this one is for a CAT scan or maybe an echogram. Hero will be coming home in about 8 weeks now, I’m sure that is weighing heavily on her mind.
SU just keeps rolling along. She stays so busy, I could never keep up with her schedule. She’ll be out this weekend for a women’s retreat and then next week she’s headed back to the valley.
She told me last night that my problem is too much Bible study and not enough fun. Perhaps she’s right. Or perhaps the Bible study is forcing me to confront some things that need confronting and I keep refusing to confront them. That was a heck of a sentence.
Seriously, I keep thinking that there is something different that I need to be doing, along the lines of Isaiah 1:17. The problem with doing that is that you get roundly criticized and ostracized by mainstream groups. One of the questions that Blackaby asked in the study yesterday had to do with the effectiveness of churches.
He pointed out that if you ask people that attend church, especially the mega-churches that are becoming so prevalent today how they are doing, they will respond that God is blessing them and they are growing. Actually, what they are pointing to are buildings and programs. But what effect are they having upon their communities?
For instance, I live in the Houston, TX metro area. Crime is out of control, alternative lifestyles rule the day, abortions are a matter of convenience, divorce is greater than 60%, homeless people are abundant, poverty is next to a mansion, etc. How can we possibly say that our churches are effective reflections of Christ?
Anyways, that’s bugging me. And I’m not exactly doing much about it.
Be glad the seas are smooth my friend, many prayers have been answered for the health of your family. Maybe you do have a social need beyond Bible study…I do what I like to do and I could care less what “mainstream groups” think.
I think most churches today are way out of touch. They are more about making us sinners feel good about ourselves…that’s a big part of the reason I don’t go as often as I should.
I remember you mentioning before that the PGR rides have started to depress you, or something to that effect…but to me, it seems you obviously feel the need to somehow thank our veterans. Maybe you could find another way.
The “Houston” problems that you list are everywhere around us and because the first is so prevalent, it makes it difficult for common folk to do much about the rest of them.
Thanks Adam. One thing I’m going to do is listen to some live music, it’s been a couple of months now. That will certainly soothe the soul.
BigJ….. the fall is here, flowers and leaves start drying… the light is more golden…a change is happening. Remember you can’t be all things to everyone….. and God’s purpose for you, may be exactly what you are doing now, or he may be leading you in another direction. Be open and ask God. HE always comes through. It’s easy for me to get impatient about things…… patience my friend:) and things will sort themselves out. I am still cheering for SU’s good news. Can you bottle some of her energy for me?
Thanks for the reminder, AW. I’m going to get up early tomorrow and see if I can catch the sunrise over Kemah.
And I’m headed to Anderson Fair tonight to listen to some old-fashioned blues.
BigJolly
Sure things could get better, remember that you do more than most. Its difficult to see some many people in stress. Concerning divorce, I worked on the school districts to offer before and after school daycare at the schools to help stabilize the kids – they are in one environment outside the home which is school, and it makes the life of working moms alittle better knowing that their jkids have dinner, their homework is done and they can spend that quality healing time with those vulnerable children.
If you like the idea, attend your local monthly school board meetings, see if they are interested in a fee based system that would help these single moms financially as well as emotionally.
And great benefits to the kids,