in the world of Jolly at the moment. Work is very slow although it does look like it is going to pick back up next week. Kinda quiet on the spiritual front as well, skipped church Sunday night to go listen to some music (led to an interesting phone call from Pop wanting to know if we were allright). SC says to just drop the if from the “if thy will be done” and all is well. Offspring are at school and seem to be doing okay.
‘Bout the most interesting thing going right now is continuing work on the websites I have out. I think a couple of people have caught on to what my goal has always been for the church site, to build a community. Starting to get a few people involved, too bad they are all new. Or, maybe not too bad, at least there is interest. They are starting to see the bigger picture and want to contribute.
I suppose on the spiritual front I’m still hung up on the idea of grace and trying to reconcile it with the fact of organized religion. More and more, I’m wondering what the role of the church is and why we have buildings, pastors, roles, etc. Of course, if we didn’t have some type of organized meetings where we could gather with other believers and share our lives, I think there would be this big empty hole in my life. Sometimes, I wonder if Jesus would attend church and think not, at least not in the way we attend, maybe more like our Sunday School classes. Unless he was there to argue with the leaders about grace and works. It’s all a bit confusing right now because I’ve been reading so much material on the opposite ends of the spectrum and not much in the middle. Best I can tell, Paul was the one pushing organization and I wonder if that was because he had received formal training in the structure of Judaism. Of course, all men tend to organize things and it would be a surprise if religion were an exception to that. I’m just trying to find that line that separates legalism from grace and trying to stay on the grace side. Easy? Perhaps for you but I’ve found it to be quite difficult. I WANT to tell you how to live so that my life choices feel right. I WANT to look down on you because it makes me feel superior. To accept people as they are is sometimes very difficult but I’m working on it. Late.