That is the name of the movie that SU and I watched tonight and I highly recommend it. That is if you are a hopeless romantic, a man morphing into a woman, half of a wonderful marriage, need a good (happy) cry or just want to get away for an hour and a half.
I felt like I was part of that story. Close yet far. Time standing still. Memories of a forgotten life. All a part of who I am, have become and am becoming.
Messy Christian had a very interesting post about loneliness. As a professional writer, she is able to capture some feelings and put them into words very well. Which she did in this case. Unfortunately, she missed part of the bigger picture. Loneliness strikes all people, including those with SU’s or significant others (SO’s), not just singles that are between relationships.
Loneliness strikes for many reasons but mostly because we as humans are afraid to expose ourselves to hurt via rejection. How many years must married couples live in the same household before that are truly able to share the space? To realize that they are part of a team, not separate indivduals? As the relationship between SU and I continues to evolve, I look back on all the missed opportunities, missed because I was afraid. Afraid to expose parts of me, parts that would surely be rejected. Only to find out that there was no rejection, only love.
One of the things that I need to work on is allowing other people into my comfort zone. It isn’t easy. Fear. Rejection. Boring, he’s so boring! Stupid, he’s so stupid! Backwoods, he’s so backwoods! Late.
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