I suppose. Sometimes I just don’t want to write, other times I have too much to say. Like today, I don’t know where to start. To be honest, I’m pretty bummed out right now, after being on a high for a few days. Why are so many Christians raking in the dough right now? While others are struggling to make ends meet? Why does our church have to participate in and contribute to this phenomenon? Why? I just want to scream.
And I had such a great weekend. And a pretty good week. Actually a spectacular week. Been working out in the garage a bit, getting it useful. Such a nice garage, makes no sense that I don’t have my workshop set up after 4 years here. Oh well, at least I started. Got my compound mitre saw set up, been looking on craigslist for a table saw. I have a couple of project ideas in mind, but first thing is to repair the microwave cabinet, then the door and post (thanks Bud).
Went to dinner with JM&JM last night. I had a really nice time, as did SU. We went down to T-Bone Toms’ for dinner and music. The weather was really nice, we were able to sit outside in comfort and listen to bluegrass music. Afterwards, we went to Coffee Oasis (formerly Kennys) for coffee and more music. Really cool, had an old guy with a guitar doing SRV, Neil Young, Eagles, and more. SU noted that I (and JM) sang along a lot. Enjoyed myself.
Class was good today, the guys had good comments as usual. They are really a great group of guys. We’re going to mow the lawn of one of the class members that has health problems, I’m so glad we are doing that. Faith without works is just plain dead. I think someone may have said that before me.
Okay, now to the problem. I get home and find out the remuneration that we are putting forth for one of the upcoming events at the new church. Incredible. It is just plain WRONG. I’ll say it again, it is WRONG to spend (or charge) that kind of money for a spiritual retreat. I suppose it was the upbringing, going to tent revivals, being dirt poor, depending upon “love” offerings and (very much in hindsight) seeing that God does take care of his people. It wouldn’t even enter my wildest imagination to charge a grand a day to tell people what God means to me and what he can do for you. No wonder the popular culture in the US and the masses in the world have such a mistrust and deep seated hatred for modern American Christianity. Remember the song, Bringing in the Sheaves? Well, we can change our tune to “Fleecing the Sheaves”.
I don’t know how long I can hang in. Right or wrong, I don’t truly know. It just feels wrong to ME. I love going to church with Pop and being able to see him and share a little of what I missed when I was younger. But now that the kids are no longer going to be around, I have to ask myself if it is worth it. The way the church is run, there is no say for anyone in the bigger picture. Sure, I can participate in my little area and try to make a difference there. But how much am I contributing to the perception among non-believers that it isn’t about the Good News, it is about petty politics, money and power?