and things go down. Strange week for the bigjolly. Thought it was going pretty good, then bam, down I go. Why the heck does that happen? Should be doing great. Sold (traded) 2 of the collection and picked up a brand new Martin DC-16RE. Good lookin’ guitar, not sure I like the rosewood sound though. Sounds a bit muffled or something to me. Definitely more bass, just not sure it is crisp enough for me. Have to have BIL pick at it to determine for certain. Probably just the way I’m fretting it or something. Anyways, great looking guitar and I came out (I think) ahead in the deal. We’ll see in the long run.
Had another birthday yesterday. They don’t seem to stop, which is a VERY good thing! It was cool, 2 baked me a German chocolate cake (tradition handed down from Mama to SU to 2), 1 called to say hey and SU took me to El Toro. Can’t beat that.
Seems like something is missing. I just don’t seem to have the traction that I should have given my current state of affairs. I try to make everyone around me happy and feel good but just don’t quite get there. It’s funny, I thought the job change would help things but it didn’t make a dent. Other than the fact that it is just a better job, that is. I sometimes just want to crawl into a hole and hide from life. Just be an observer, not a participant. I think, in fact, that is why, for so many years, I kept myself isolated and alone. It’s easier. With participation comes the realization that all is not as it seems from a distance. Why can’t people see that I try, even though I fumble and flail? I feel so alone. Late.